Year in Review: My Thoughts on 2019

Wednesday, 8 January 2020

I haven't done one of these in a while.

My last Year in Review was in 2017, as I had finished up the first term of my second year. I think back and realize how much I missed in 2017. It was lackluster in comparison to the next two years, but I was surrounded by good friends and felt good about myself. 

Earlier this year, I posted an overview of my January - August. It's a gentle reminder that less than five months ago, life felt emotional, reckless and terrifying. Now, looking back at the past four months, it has been nothing like that. It's better.

How did it go?

  • Kuala Lumpur with Tourism Malaysia

I found out Tourism Malaysia was taking me and Amirul Adli to Kuala Lumpur two days before the flight. Five days in a familiar city, with different people. I had grown to love Kuala Lumpur as a second home, and it still feels like it. Just a little bit louder, wilder and friendlier.

My favorite part of the trip was the quietest. I left the hotel for an old friend's flat where we stayed outside at the balcony, just chatting the night away. It's the little things like this that make me feel alive. 

  • Joined an internship program for Climate Change

I feel like such an adult ever since I started my internship. An 8-hour workday at a fancy office, that I'm glad to spend with old friends. We spend most mornings finishing work as we chat about the future then go for lunch and bubble tea afterward. It's amazing. 

  • Busan, South Korea with the Busan Tourism Organisation

I went to South Korea and to be honest, I still can't believe it. It felt like a whirlwind of three/four days and the only recollection that I have is in film. As if the whole thing was a narcissistic surrealist's dream but it wasn't It was amazing, beautiful and cold - in a good way.

  • One day in Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam

We had a 10-hour layover in Saigon before our next flight to South Korea, so I took the chance to get out. Saigon still rings in my ear - the honks and screeches of the traffic outside. One day in Ho Chi Minh is definitely not enough, but I'm still thankful I got to visit this city.

  • Performed as Madame Giry for Seeds Brunei's 10th Anniversary Show in Mystery of The Opera

I haven't been on stage for over five years but Seeds Brunei was celebrating its 10th Anniversary. It was the first home I ever made so I auditioned and was cast as Madame Giry - and I had to sing. It was terrifying, and it wasn't. All because of the amazing people in it.

Every weeknight spent singing and practicing with the family I missed so much. I've known most of them since I was 14, and now, we're older and much better. 
  • Performed spoken word at the launch of the Tiny Lit Festival

It was the first time I performed in spoken word since March, and the first time I performed in Brunei in over two years. The Real Word invited me as one of the speakers for the launch. It's inspiring to be surrounded by creative people flourishing, pouring hearts in poems and songs. Also, meeting some old friends that night. Quite nice.  

And that was my 2019.

It felt like two different phases in my life, one absolutely horrible and the other quite good. I like to think it balanced out to a productive but dissociative year. What 2020 has in store the world can only wait. Good things perhaps but I can only hope.

How was your 2019?

with love,
Bash Harry

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