T H I S B L O G I S O F F I C I A L L Y T W O Y E A R S O L D
Bash Says Hey hit publish in 2014, but I removed all posts from 2014. I considered them 'improper' once I bought a domain. Though Hey Bash launched in July 2015, I consider 10th April 2014 as the start of this blogging journey.
And so Hey Bash is now two years old. I celebrate this birthday as usual. In bed, typing away on a laptop and worrying about something potentially insignificant.
Life of a blogger.
Someone asked how I can balance blogging, life and other projects. My answer is simple. I don't.
I will neglect something. If I don't want life's involvement, I focus on blogging. Hence a strong start in the year. If life becomes overwhelming, I won't blog for a while. Hence my lack of input in the community right now.
In truth, blogging became both a sanctuary and struggle.
I wonder if I would be the same girl as I was two years ago if I didn't start a blog. Significantly happier and mostly unnoticed. Brows may not be on fleek and clothes grandmotherly but she could smile, laugh and forget. She didn't feel the need to dress up or write for an audience. She had a good life without crippling self-doubt.
I don't enjoy talking about my life. There is a distinction I refuse to let overlap and yet it does. It would be false to say blogging has not affected my life. It has in many ways. Blogging has opened so many opportunities. I got to model (a little girl's dream), be invited to events (and decline!), and meet incredible (and not-so incredible) people. I was even featured on Projek Brunei this week!
But life has affected blogging as well. And when my personal problems engulf me, I can't bring myself to blog, to talk or to even feel. Then I feel terrible. It's a lose-lose situation.
Stop me before I divulge into my depression.
Let me first express gratitude to some amazing people. Admittedly I am not a social person, blogging-wise or in real life. Problems of being socially inept is coming across as either too detached or too unattached. But I would like to thank these people first. Who make blogging tolerable and makes me feel safe in this mess.
M E G from A LITTLE TWIST OF ...
If I feel sad, I visit Meg's blog and feel happier. She is the big sister I never had, and the sister I want to be. Always honest and unapologetically upfront. Meg has helped me so much through her posts, and I will always be grateful for that.
S T A C E Y from FIX ME IN FORTY FIVE
She featured me when her blog turned two, it felt right to feature her. Stacey is a beautiful lady with a kind heart and strong spirit. I admire her strength during trifling times. I loved her post on Mental Illness, that I don't think I could ever do. Please go visit her and donate to her dog, that was diagnosed with cancer.
A R E E B A from NOT YOUR TYPE
Areeba is the definition of cool. She exudes coolness through her honesty, humour and genuine personality. She is a ray of sunshine during those gloomy days. I scroll through her blogs, and always astounded by her creativity. Long story short; she's cool so go check her out.
F I F I from THE RUSTIC TROVE
First Brunei Blogger I met, and still the greatest in my opinion. Our mutual friend introduced us during her dinner and we immediately bonded. It was the first time I could ever talk to someone about blogging so openly. Also her photography is stunning.
P R A Y A from PRAYA KAMAT
I had the pleasure of meeting Praya earlier this month. A recent blogger joining this endeavour, she's absolutely lovely. It's exciting to watch a girl like her go through the stages of blogging. How exciting it must be. Watch out for a collaboration we'll be doing soon.
I love everyone who takes time to read my blog. It keeps me going to write posts. This is an amazing place filled with wonderful people that I was lucky to meet.
I also have to give a big thank you to my sister, Syasya (@syasyaharry) who takes most of my photos with much reluctance. Haziqah Omar (@haziiiqaaah) for being my go-to graphic designer and best friend. We both note how much I owe her, and I agree. And to my Mom, actively supporting this venture. It's also her birthday. Happy 45th Birthday!
Looking back through this blog reminds me of how far I've come. Both as a blogger and a person. How much blogging has defined me as a person.
Prior to this blog, I was a manic teenage girl with much to say and little to do. Now, I am a manic young adult with little to say and much to do.
And yet I don't think I will ever stop. I will continue writing, photographing and reviewing for the sake of myself. I thrive in stress and live through strains. Hey Bash will always have a piece of me, stored in drafts never published. And Hey Bash will always be mine.
Happy Birthday H E Y B A S H . Let's get blogging.
What does blogging mean to you?