OOTD | Remnants of Home

Tuesday, 4 August 2015

Remnants of a past, lost in memory. Perhaps that is all you will ever be. A hazy thought, that I will look on longingly but eventually forget. I will forget the secrets behind your facade, the laughter filling your space, the times I called you home.

I might see you again, or what remains of you. My eyes will turn away. A glance is all it takes to realize how much you have changed. I might visit you, nostalgic for all we have seen and all that we have known. It won't be the same though. We will be different, and I will forget you.

All you will be is a remnant of what was once mine.

This is about a house.

This house was my first love, living in it since I was a babe. I would stare big and bright-eyed at the faux brick facade, excited to call this house was mine. It has changed since then. Now, it's painted beige with more greenery in pots. A patio made but never used, trees grown but its fruits uneaten. Still, all the same.

It has been a fixture of my life, a place to run to when things became too much. Home was not grand, a three-storey mansion with a pool, shown proudly to visitors. Home was beautiful, a small English cottage with a garden, hidden among haunted houses and empty lots.

Which makes moving away all the more heartbreaking. 

I will move in six months that will pass in a blink of an eye. Everyone feels disheartened by the move. My sister cried when we told her. Of course she did. This was a symbol of her childhood. Of our childhood. It was as much her sanctuary as it was mine. 

To immortalize the house, my mother insisted on taking some photos. 'Dress up nice. Take nice photos,' she said. Have something to remember before it vanishes. Capture its essence, frame it and hang it over our heads for years to come. I didn't mind.

So I dressed up. Jeans because it was a casual day. Heels because why not? Black because I was mourning.

You become sentimental when snapping shots on the stairs. Realizing that this a part of growing up, and everyone goes through it. Everyone leaves eventually. Still, it doesn't make it any less painful.

Necklace : Claire's | Shirt : Uniqlo | Kimono : Faiz Boutique
Jeans : Hurley | Shoes : Prada

I understand that getting sad over a house is childish. It's not the worst thing in the world. People move away all the time. Heck, I'm moving in six months! Not two weeks. There's plenty of time to say goodbye. I shouldn't feel so sad yet. At least, that's what I tell myself,

It's still the place I call home. It's still cozy and comfy. It's still here. Home is where the heart is. I fell in love with this house. It has my heart. A remnant to keep when I finally go away.

So tell me...

What was your childhood home like?


  1. Oh my, it was a small apartement in a skyscraper in Sibiria... so not really special to me. :) However your outfit looks special, Bash! I love how you styled it with that Kimono and killer Pradas. Looking tres chic, love!! You're a beautiful young woman!


  2. You look amazing dear!

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  3. Amazing photos :)
    You look stunning!
    xx Katha

  4. Your heels are amazing!
    Sorry you are losing your childhood home. We moved around so much, I never really had to a place to get sad over.

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  5. You look amazing! I love your shoes! This post is written so well, I loved reading it.

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  6. Your photos are great. I find the way you edit them very different from other blogs-- very inspiring. I know the moving away feeling especially from a house you've lived in all your life. You captured the essence of your house so well here. Great job.

    Duty Free Dame

  7. Your outfit looks so lovely! It really is sad to move from a childhood home and, fortunately, I never have had to leave permanently. My parents are talking about moving though so I may be moving sooner rather than later!

    Rachael at broomfie.blogspot.com

  8. Lovely pics! I love your blog:)


  9. You're the most beautiful creature and writer I have ever known. I've never known any other home, and I dread the day you've reached. I hope my hugs from the other side of the world give you some comfort. xo


  10. Love your blazer, Great shoot!

  11. I felt the same way when I left my big house in Brazil. It will be all ok :)

    heels are so pretty!

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  12. Love the outfit! Hope you find home again soon

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  13. Beautiful look! Love your Hair style. <3


  14. Your house looks beautiful! And so do you!
    Hopefully you will make many more good memories at your new house. :)
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  15. It is not the place but the memories that makes saying good bye hard...
    Pretty look and love the heels!


  16. Love the entire outfit but your shoes especially are absolutely stunning!


  17. So stunning pics bash, love your style :)

  18. I feel sad every time I move from one home to a new home. I'm excited for the new home but at the same time so sad about leaving my current home. It does not get any easier with each home. I know the feeling well. I love your outfit and your pictures. You look stunning and those shoes are great.


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  20. You are literally always chic. I love this simple look with clean lines and those amazing heels!

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  21. This look is so chick but cool! Love it!


  22. Love it! the jeans look great on you! and your skin is so beautiful!
    xo Carina


  23. I think this is the first time I've seen you in jeans on the blog! I love the look, and your makeup is always amazing.

    Growing up, I moved around a lot, but I was always sad as well when we had to move. I'd get super sentimental and sit in every room, remembering important things that had happened there. It's definitely not silly to be sad over a house - but the silver lining is that you have a decent amount of time to properly say good bye!

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  24. That's definitely hard to move away from your childhood home and it isn't one bit childish to be upset about it. I remember when I moved for the first time I thought the world was ending, but luckily it didn't and while I still miss my first house and the memories there my new house quickly became filled with new memories. I think it's great though that you were able to take some pictures around the house before you move.

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  25. I love your effortlessly chic look and your makeup is flawless! Love the way you write, too.

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  26. You look amazing, and totally understand how that feels when you moving away. xx


  27. Aww, I know how you feel! My family have moved around a lot and to be honest, saying goodbye to a home doesn't really get easier. So don't feel bad about getting sentimental about it, I think it's quite sweet x

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  28. My parents built our house, and we've never moved away from it. It's a lovely red house with lots of windows surrounded by acres of trees and fields and mountains...I can't imagine losing my childhood home :( it's hard enough living in a gross cement dorm building when I'm away at college. I loved reading your writing in this post, it was really wonderful...I hope you find the perfect way to say goodbye to your home.
    xo Kiki

  29. You are gorgeous! That haircut is so good on you! Stumbled upon your blog via Little Moon Dragon.

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  30. I love this outfit, your style is beautiful!


  31. I'm sorry for that-- i know childhood memories are important but I think it will never vanished through time.
    Love this comfy look esp the blazer.

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  32. These pictures are absolutely stunning. I'm loving this casual rock chic look you've got going on. It's so funky haha :D

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  33. So chic, really great to see such wonderful look. Outfits like that is really inspiring. Have a nice day!

  34. I understand your sentiment, Bash..
    Yet life is like that, we come and go.. perhaps its still with us in our memmories for the rest of our lives, it's a part of us we can't deny that's why you're feeling sad. Just let it go, don't keep it into your inner thoughts, it feels better..

    I love the outfit, btw :)

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  35. I get sad over everything too. Moving sucks, even more so when you have great memories here. I know how you feel, enjoy the next 6 months x
    These photos are so lovely doll, I love the shoes!


  36. Oh that sucks dear! I hated moving too when I was younger, it has all your childhood memories that can never be replaced! Good luck with the move!
    I need to say that I just LOVE your shoes!


  37. you are soooo gorgeous! such a chic outfit :) I hope the move goes smoothly. My biggest move was from Cali to Japan and that was challenging, but its always nice to remember I'll have a home in Cali if I ever want to go back

  38. Sorry to hear that , hope that everything will be ok with your moving. Btw, you look stunning, I love your kimono :)


  39. Such a beautiful post! I was out of the country when our old house were sold and my dad replaced it a new house, although it was a better one than the latter, the memories where I grew up will always be cherished!

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  40. Love the look, the shoes are awesome !


  41. Adore your outfit, especially your shoes!!


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  44. I love this love especially the blazer

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  45. clean look
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  46. It's not weird to get sad over a house. :) it's normal. Gorgeous photos once again, one of my favorite outfits of yours!

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  48. Hell no, getting emotional and a little upset because you're leaving your childhood home is normal and in no way childish! I would feel the same if I was in your shoes. My sis in-law sold her home recently and her kids were really upset about it, it's hard to move away from something that you known all your life.

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  49. Feeling sad at moving is totally normal. I do it all the time when I'm moving apartments and I haven't even lived there that long! LOL. It just us reminiscing about the good memories we have made there. So it's good that we are a little sad as we were happy there. :)

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  50. I really like this outfit, simple but cute, and I love the heels!


  51. It is always hard to say goodbye to a house. Our homes are where are memories are made and our lives happen. Now you have the chance to make new ones and see where life takes you. Gorgeous outfit and lovely poem
    Dresses & Denim

  52. Lovely look and I love that shade of lipstick on you. So pretty.

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  53. It is a beautiful house, and luckily you & your family will take the good memories with you.
    Am obsessing over your outfit....simple, chic, casual and comfy. The shoes are gorgeous.


  54. Lovely outfit and pictures !!
    I still can't get over my first house where I spent most of my childhood, the memories are freash and will remain forever.
    Godd luck :)


  55. Gorgeous look and that smile ♥♥♥



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  56. So stylish ! Love the kimono :)

  57. I love your writing! Moving is always so hard, I hope everything works out. I love the outfit.


  58. I feel you bash! I had the same experience when our family switched cities. One metro to the other. It felt sad to leave the home I grew up in but change must be welcomed.

    PS: I really love your hair. It makes me want to chop mine off but then I'm too scared. haha. And your shoes! ♥

  59. Great look!

  60. I never really felt nostalgic about my home, but living in another city, heck another country, makes me nostalgic about my home town. It was small, but that`s what made it special. Love the outfit, those heels are a dream!


  61. It is not childish ! If you feel home & comfortable somewhere, then you never want to leave this place - this is human.

    Your skin looks so perfect - incredible !

    x Stefanie

  62. Wow! You look stunning; I adore your kimono. And girl, getting sad over a house is NOT childish. It's kind and lovely; and totally understandable. <3

  63. My childhood home is in Hawaii, it was my grandparents house. My mom, brother & I moved back in with them after my parents split up when I was young.

    I moved out 2-3 years ago and it was very nostalgic. At least we still have our memories :)


  64. Love your shoes, this is such a cute outfit put together perfectly I also love the striped top it is super cute.

  65. I am sorry to hear about your childhood home! It's hard to move away from a house that holds so many memories and happy times. But at least you will still have those memories even if you don't have the home to go with it. Also-it's also a good thing that you can have many different places to call home! Soon enough, you'll find a place that you will love to call your home again!

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  66. I feel your sadness. I moved away so many times growing up do to my father's death, so leaving home was especially heart braking. Not to make you feel worst or anything. I just understand your feelings. Thanks for visiting my blog and leaving a comment recently. I love your style of writing very much. I'll ve following you from now on through G+, Bloglovin, and Instagram. Hope you will follow me there as well and keep in touch. Have a lovely weekend! :))

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  67. You are such a beauty! And, more importantly, I totally understand what you're feeling. When I first moved houses, I had a similar feeling of sadness. It's really hard, and it's not at all weird or silly or childish to grow attached to a house. It is "home," after all. It'll take some time, but I'm confident that you'll be happy in your new place! :)

  68. those heels are so cool! neat outfit! Hope the move goes great! I moved when I was 16 and thought the new home was cool but wouldn't be the same and its crazy how I hardly remember the old house now. All the memories somehow transferred to the new house with the traditions being the same. It all got better :)

  69. It's so sad to say goodbye, even to a house! I hope that it will be bittersweet instead of upsetting!!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
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  70. Definitely lovin' this get up! :) You look gorgeous, Bash!

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  71. I find moving very exciting but very heart breaking too so I completely understand what you mean, I am not a material person but memories mean a lot to me. Last time I moved was six years ago but yet I still miss it at times. The positive side of things is that you'll get to make a lot of new memories in your future house !

    xx, Charlie

  72. I lived in LA for ten years and then moved to Beijing where I lived for eight years, and now I'm back in the States (but in Philly) for college. The greatest thing I've discovered throughout all these moves is that home isn't necessarily where your house is. Instead of seeing moving away as losing a home, I see moving to another place as gaining a home :) I don't know how true that is, but it definitely helps me come to terms with all the change. Good luck with your move! -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey's

  73. My childhood home is what I'm still living in until today so I really don't know how it feels to be leaving. But pretty soon, I will. And I wish I could get through it easily.

    I love your outfit here by the way! :)


  74. Love your outfit! I felt really upset when I moved house the first time, but now in my 21 years, I've moved 9 times!! It gets easier :)

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  75. It does get easier over time - you'll feel a lot better when you're settled. I always move and it feels strange when I'm in one place for a long time now…..

    Love your outfit and love your whole look - absolutely gorgeous! :)

    Layla xx


  76. Hey, it's not childish.. if it's part of your history, your cherished memories.. then it's perfectly natural to have sad thought about moving out! Hopefully the new place will be just as nice as this current one! :)

    Love the outfit.. love the jeans.. and I absolutely agree with the mentality of wearing "heels, because why not?" wholeheartedly! :)

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