Youtube | So Things Happened.

W H E R E   H A V E   I   B E E N ?

Away,  but that's a given.

I can make excuses. God knows I make plenty daily. Law school is hard, life is strange and I am not sane. Attempts to rationalise my lethargy and lack of self fail. Instead, I spent time alone. Taking in the joys of a new town. Finding myself in late nights. Consistent ups and downs and nothings. 

All I can truly say is; things happened. Let's talk about them.

OOTD | Stream of Dopamine

Bash Harry, Brunei UK Beauty, Fashion Life & Style Hijabi Blogger
Bash Harry, Brunei UK Beauty, Fashion Life & Style Hijabi Blogger
 H I T   M E   W I T H
T H A T   S T R E A M   O F   D O P A M I N E .

I want your sugar in my veins. Blood is too bitter for my body. A shot is all I need. When I inhale the smoke and seed, you are all I feel. I don't want to feel anything but this. As I float away, grasping at your ecstasy, I find you everywhere. Under your influence, I don't want to let this go.

Yet, I can't take this. Once my mind clears, I know. There is no clarity with you, just empty bliss. But once struck by your eyes, I'm hooked on your spell. I can only think of you. There is a wickedness to your smile, and I wipe it away. I need to ask;

Baby, can you take away my pain?

Five Things in October

I T   W A S   A   B U S Y   O C T O B E R .

Hence my lack of posts. But here I am nonetheless. Typing in between classes, pretending I'm doing actual work. Which I'm not. Instead, I am writing this because it is a week over due and I feel bad.

Here are my Five Things in October!


' h i d e   y o u r   f a c e
s o   t h e   w o r l d   w i l l   n e v e r
f i n d   y o u . '

No one knows her. No one sees her. A raven veil cloaked her being. Shrouded in mystery through the curtain of night. She strides in, nose high and back arched. Her smile small and bare. Unknown to the world without her crimson face. As she always intended.

She dips a thin paintbrush into blood, droplets fall to the floor. With flicks of her wrist, she carves her skin. The bristles scratching her cheeks but bares it nevertheless. Cuts deep, but the scars will fade. She notes when the rouge finally dries. Still, she stands. Better painted red like her lovers than black without gain.

She chose her mask. The false face she wears for the world. Without it, she is nothing.

This is why we wear masks. Without, what are we?

OOTD | Maybe IDK

Bash Harry, UK-Based Bruneian Beauty, fashion life and style Blogger
" I S   T H I S   B Y   D E S I G N   O R   R A N D O M   F A T E ? "

Oh, I don’t know.

But who does? When faced with the uncertainty of certain farces, we cower behind humour and sarcasm. I keep my head forward, back straight and feet planted to the concrete. Dressed in black to suit the forsaken. Large rims hiding tired eyes, and lips parted to breathe. Wandering around the streets, alone in the crowd. I am lost.

I lost myself.

And maybe that's okay.

OOTD | My First Uniform

Bash Harry, Brunei-Born Exeter Uk-Based Beauty, Fashion Life and Style Blogger
Bash Harry, Brunei-Born Exeter Uk-Based Beauty, Fashion Life and Style Blogger
I   A L W A Y S   W O R E   A   U N I F O R M

From kindergarten to sixth form, I wore patterned skirts, plain white dress shirt with a square scarf. For nearly 12 years, I knew what to wear every school day. The uniform hanged on my rack without much change, save for a few faint stains. Everyone looks like everyone else, no one bothers looking nicer in a sea of plain white fabric.

University is a little different but the same nevertheless.

Looking nice for the first few days then changes to a new kind of uniform. Sneakers, hoodie and bedhead. Like every other girl in university. Luckily, I organised an outfit. Just for the first day.

Five Things in September

T H I N G S   H A P P E N E D

As they usually do. 

Moving, studying, adjusting. Life changed drastically but it was expected. For years, I've been preparing for this September. Finally able to study in UK, and work hard and do good. Of sorts. Getting here though was not difficult but it was tedious.

Here are Five Things in September!